AHAHAHAH

Life is just funny, ya know?
All during high school, in gym class, I couldn't and didn't WANT to do much. I'd get out of breath easily. I'd be too...bored to do anything in gym. Like...it's gym. The only thing exercise I did was played softball outside of school during the spring.
So I'm laughing inside right now because I joined my gym in May 2011, and joining was a joke. I wouldn't go. Like ever. I'd pay $30 for nothing. I'd go maybe once a week during the school year. So when school ended for the summer, I was like, "okay, I'm going to use this membership." I've now been going 5 days a week. School starts again in 9 days though, so we'll see if I keep it up but I REALLY want to. Anyway, I try to jog on the track or treadmill at the gym. JOKE.
Back in May or so, I'd jog on the treadmill. I'd feel so proud if I could get a good 1 minute in without stopping. After that, I switched to the track. I finally got over the fear that I looked like this while running on the track:

So, I just forgot about that and started running on the track. I can't freaking do it. People run for like, ten minutes! I can't even do one! I either get dizzy, have side pain, cramps, stomach pain, or my legs hurt. So today, I asked my friend and she's like, "oh, you have shin splints." So now, I'm googling them and looking them up and you're supposed to rest. Are you kidding me. I'm trying so hard to be able to increase my endurance and now I have this problem preventing me from running at all. These websites say to try alternatives, such as cycling. Good one. I do that already on my bike everyday and on the bike at the gym. But I absolutely LOVE running, even though I can't do it for long at all. I just love the freedom of it. I have bad anxiety, so I like to run it out and just forget about everything. I love sprinting. I love feeling like my legs are going to fall off. And now I can't even do that anymore?!?! Now I'm going from running 20 seconds to no seconds?!? This sucks. I actually wanted to try to get fit and get into shape and be able to run long distances but how can I if my body sucks? My mind is in it, but my body isn't. And I can't even buy actual running shoes since I'm broke. This blows. Guess I'm stuck biking at the gym and walking the track, which gets so boring.