well....hey there!

Many things running through my mind for my first post:

Do I write my first post about a topic very near to my heart? (Music).

Do I try to be witty and funny? (It won't come off as witty and funny in this post, I'm sure).

Do I say how I don't think anyone will even read this blog, and how it's not my first blog I've ever had? (No...that would be irrelevant and pointless).

Do I tell you what song I'm currently listening to? (By the time I type the name out, I'll be on a new song).

So, after all of that, I'm still sitting here wondering which subject is important enough to become my first post.

Eh, might as well type out whatever crap is in my head. Many things. At this current moment, there are a lot of thoughts running through my head.

I've been way into oldie songs lately. Songs that I hear on the stations my parents listen to, songs that my parents grew up with, as opposed to....the amazing music WE get the joy to grow up with!

I'm listening to "Roll to Me" by Del Amitri right now, and 5 minutes ago was "I Only Wanna Be With You" by Hootie and the Blowfish. Old songs make me so happy. It's amazing how much music has changed and how different it sounds. It makes you wonder what it will be like even more into the future. (Starting "Listen to the Music" by Doobie Brothers now). At least music is something that can never go away. Like... you don't have to worry about keeping it safe incase there's a fire or something. It's ALWAYS there. The internet now has given us many opportunities to allow access to anything these days. So it's great to know that no matter how old you get, and no matter how much music changes, you know that you'll always be able to listen to a song that you really want to listen to. I was just thinking the other day....music is the one thing that helps me out through anything I'm going through. If I'm happy and feel like being sad or feel like thinking or contemplating...put a sad song on. If you're in a horrible mood, put on an inspirational song. Music is something you can't SEE, yet it has the power to do anything. Sure, you can see instruments and equipment but as for actual songs, without sheet music, music is something where you can just sit and it surrounds you without actually being seen. It's amazing. Some people have people who are always there for them to help them out through things, and some have other ways of coping. For me, it's music. Being a music major, I am pretty ashamed to call myself one. I can't play an instrument. I can't read music. I don't know fancy music lingo. But if I were to completely drop being a music major...it wouldn't feel right. I know that music is my one passion and the one thing that I need to breathe, even if I can't really justify myself as a music major yet. I'm getting there. It's been a rough path to actually take important music classes that will teach me something a music major should know, and I'm finally taking those classes this fall. Should be an exciting semester! I can't wait to learn even more about a language that connects so many people, a language that connects people more than anything else can, in my opinion.

Did that paragraph even make sense? In any way? I'm drifting off right now. It's only 12:03 am. I can usually go way longer than this, but I'll attribute my newest medication to that, as well as my workouts at the gym.

Onto that topic, if anyone has read this far. I've been a member at my gym for a year and two months now, and I'm sorry to say that when I was in school, I basically just flung my money at the gym without even actually USING the gym. I would go maybe....twice a month? I would be dishing out $30 a month for that, and that's hard when you are unemployed. But THANKFULLY, I got the good sense to actually utilize the gym and NOT throw my money away, as soon as school ended. I've now been going 5-6 days a week, depending on how I feel. I'm very proud to say that I've been going Monday-Friday, usually. And at first, I wouldn't do much. I'm happy to say that tonight, after I got done doing my 20 minute bike ride on the bikes, my shirt actually had visible sweat. That has never happened before! I've done exercises on the treadmill, jogged some laps on the track, used the elliptical...but I feel like the bike is my calling. Last week, I started getting serious. A few weeks ago, I would go on the bike and chat with friends and just go on level 1 and not even hurt an ounce. It was pathetic. And then I would leave all proud of myself like, "Well, I made it to the gym!" ....So stupid. So last week, I cut the crap and actually decided to push myself. I am now doing 4-5 miles each day. I can do 4 miles in about 19-20 minutes. I'm not quite sure if that's still sad, or really good, but all I know is that I am in pain when I am on that bike because I push myself, and I can even see my heart rate go SO high that it feels like my heart is about to fall out of my chest. I need to soon increase what I'm doing, but I feel really happy with where I am right now. I can tell that my legs are getting stronger and I can now do higher levels and I never really have to go down to level one to relax on the bike a little. I really want to get into shape, and not just for the summer or anything. I just want to have muscle and be strong. It's going to take awhile, and I really have no clue what I'm doing at the gym, but any type exercise is always a step forward! 

Whoops....wrote a little bit more than I thought I would but I tend to rant in person so why would this blog be any different?