Obsessed.

I am obsessed with the James Holmes case. As I'm watching a show about the brain and psychology and such. I just can't get enough of this stuff. I just realized, that sometimes, with all of the murders in the world, I only seem to be interested in ones where a shooting is involved. That makes me sound twisted or weird or something, but I can't help it. If you murder someone close to you, at least there's an obvious link. Like you know the person. But if you are a random person who shoots massive amounts of random people....it makes me wonder so much more than any other type of murder case. James Holmes had another court hearing today and his maximum sentence is execution and his minimum sentence is life in prison without parole. Those seem like the same to me. Quite honestly, I'd rather get execution than spend the rest of my life rotting away in jail. That's the thing....that's what makes me wonder so much what made him do this. One of my friends said she thinks he did it for the fame and I just disagree completely. You'd think if that were true, he'd be eating up the limelight. But he's not saying a word in these trials. I just feel like he didn't do that for the fame. I'm not sure as to what I think about if he has a mental disorder or not, but I don't feel like the motive was just to go down in history as killing so many people. I mean, if that were true, he'd HAVE to be insane. How could you KNOW that you would get caught yet still do something like that and KNOW that you had a life in prison ahead of you? Although, on the other hand, if he actually is insane, he apparently can just be let out into the world about 6-10 years down the road...which is so scary to think about. So it's like...maybe he's insane and knew that he could get off with that and be okay? I have no idea. This case just keeps spiraling in my head and I keep thinking of all these new things. It's the psychology. I love psychology. I love knowing why people do things, think things, say things. I really have no clue about why he did this, but those are my thoughts. I just could never imagine doing anything that would end up giving you a life in prison. Waiting, rotting, wilting away in prison until you die. It's just....no life. So to do that to your own life, you have to take innocent peoples' lives? I just don't get it. I don't think I ever will, but this case has definitely given me something to think about and is giving me something to try to wrap my brain around. Too bad I'm failing at it.